Faces n places...

All my life I've been lost in this maze of temptations n opportunities that seems to grow with age.Too many one ways, turns n doors I dont know which is right or wrong. No one's without fault but I tried to keep on the right track. With time i realised it takes a couple of left turns on ur way to the right turn. I feel so much rage, cant find the keys out this cage. Feel like a word stuck on the wrong page i didnt choose. Indeed we're all stuck in the same maze n cage, life's a grand movie n we all on the same stage. It's like the world is a book n we're all just words that make up one story regardless of individual origin, opinion, colour, status, creed or culture. All our destinies as human beings ultimately depend on each other. Its like every page's a different place n every word a different face...
Reminincin on ma past yearz, holdin back tears proves futile, perhaps its the only way to ease the hurt. I let ma emotions bleed thru ma eyes, memories n pain leak from ma heart thru my mind to the pen. At times i cant help but wonder why God let's certain thingz happen even with prior knowledge of all fate and capacity to avert all injustice n misfortune. We should all acknowledge that many predicaments are undesirable & yet entirely preventable by God, but they still come to pass. Does God hate some of us?
Does God have a sense of humour? If so, its ma hope n prayer to him to please hear me out n share one joke wit all of us, perhaps the world is a bunch of individual souls waiting for one unanimous emotion to unite us! Is God so busy He has to put some people's requests on hold? Arent there times you've felt ignored, forgotten, betrayed or even maliced by God? Theaz times i doubted God's awareness of all Human plight. If such is his love that He created, loves n takes us all as equals n his mercies are ever new n overflowing, then why let the unexplained misfortune, injustice n evil go on unchecked as though He were oblivious of it while a few drown in the fortune, treasures n pleasures under the same sun! Could it be a lack of initiative or a lack of will on God's part coz with such knowledge, might n authority, atleast an explanation will help. Could we be payin for those that preceeded us? Perhaps fate is the hidden price of free will...
I have learnt that in many instances essence comes before existence. It's true for every occurence, there's the ocassion, means and reason. These r the determining parameters of whether an act, thought or deed is right or wrong. Coz when somethin bad happens to a bad person, its percieved n accepted as justice served, but when misfortune befalls a good person then its taken as bad! Maybe
for someone to be good they must endure pain n misfortune gladly... Thus implying that for somethin to be bad it must happen to a good person. On my quest for knowledge, been to lots of places, seen many faces but still no explanation seems to suffice...
I concluded that regardless of place or what i face, i believe I break no rule as long as am in defence of self or in pursuit of justice n knowledge... So help me GOD.

"Only a fool isnt proud of failure, I kno I aint perfect but I've learned over the years that perfection is merely cumulative imperfection! What lies behind me n what lies ahead of me are nothin compared to what lies with in me, the biggest loss in life is not what a man misses or dies with out, but its rather what dies within him as he lives. Ambition determines priorities...
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